For awhile TJ & I have been talking about having a baby. I got my tubes tied 10 years ago after I had my daughter Ashley. I was married to my ex & I thought we were going to stay together. Well that was not the case.

I have been with TJ for over 9 years now. He doesn’t have any kids of his own. I know he would like to have kids some day. I would really like to have another baby someday. I knew when I got my tubes tied that it was a mistake. I was very young when I did it. I was 22 years old.

I was 22 years old with 3 kids. I really thought I was done having babies. Well I guess I thought wrong. TJ is scared to have a baby with me. His sister had to failed pregnancies. He is afraid that something is going to happen to me if I get pregnant & something happens. His sister was in her middle 30’s.

I am 32 right now. We have been looking online & doing some research. We have found a place that we want to go to. The name of the place is Chapel Hill Tubal Reversal Center. I have done a lot of research on this place. They have been founded since 1979.

Women come from all over the world to go there to get their tubal Reversed. They have a very high success rate of pregnancy.

For women between the ages of 30-34 their success rate to get pregnant is 73%. For women between the ages of 35-39 their success rate to get pregnant is 64%.
The place is in North Carolina. A 12 hour drive from here. The cost is $5900. I know the cost is a little high but it isn’t that bad.

We have been talking about this for awhile now. I am going to call them to talk to them. We have some questions about it. TJ’s biggest question is “What is the risk?” That is one of my questions to.

I know you have to be a certain weight or something to do the surgery. Your BMI has to be less then 37. Right now I’m at a 34. I plan on being much less by the time we plan on doing the surgery. I want to make sure that there isn’t going to be any problems with the surgery due to my weight.

They even have a pre-payment plan. You can open a account there & make payments when you can. That is one of my questions.

There are things we have to do here first before we think about calling them. I know it is going to take a while before we can do this. Just thought I would talk to someone else about it. Someone that has done it before. What was it like? How long did it take you to get pregnant after the surgery? It would be nice to hear some stories.

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This morning we got up at 5:30. TJ made breakfast. We had oatmeal, toast, & a banana. It was good.

After breakfast we went back to bed. I had a weird dream. I dreamed that I was at least 6 months pregnant with a boy & didn’t know it until I went to the hospital. I could feel the baby move & kick me. It was so awesome.

We had the normal for lunch. A tangerine, banana, & yogurt.

For dinner TJ made homemade chicken noodle soup with homemade mashed taters. That was a great dinner.

I was going to go for a walk tonight since it was kind of nice outside but I didn’t. I was helping TJ with dinner.

This weekend I plan on making cookies with the girls. I think they will like that.

I just did nothing today. Oh I did take a nice hot relaxing bath. I love taking baths. I don’t know why I told you that.

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Today was a good day. We got up around 5:30 am. Well, I woke up when the alarm went off but didn’t get out of bed. I layed there thinking if I wanted to get up or not. T.J. got up a little after 6 am. TJ said “Honey, why didn’t I get up? I didn’t hear the alarm go off.” I said “The alarm went off. You turned it off.”

T.J. made a great breakfast. We had steak egg & cheese bagels with orange juice & a banana. They were really good.

After we ate breakfast & Stephi went off to school I went back to bed.

For lunch I ate a banana, tangerine, & yogurt. That was a good lunch.

When I came home from work I ate BBQ chicken, baked tater, & corn for dinner. That was good.

I would have worked out but I think I broke the exercise bike last night. When you pedal you can hear the wheel grinding. It doesn’t sound good. I think it is time to get a new bike.

Yesterday when I was working I saw a 5 year old little girl sitting in the front seat of a car not buckled up. She kept moving around. Really? Parents know better then to have your kids not buckled up. Come on, do you really want something to happen? Here is the question. Do you say something or not? You know it isn’t your business but you don’t want something bad to happen. That is a hard question to ask.

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Today is the first day of November. I can’t believe it already. Where has the year gone?

Today is the start of a new me. Today we are eating healthy and exercising. This morning I had steak, eggs, hashbrowns, and a banana. I didn’t finish my steak and eggs. I also had some orange juice. Yummy! I’m full now.

For lunch I’m having some yogurt, banana, and a tangerine. What a good lunch.

For dinner we are having BBQ chicken and not sure what else. It is going to be a great dinner. Of course TJ is going to be cooking it.

As for the exercise I think I will go for a walk and do the bike today when I get home from work. I was thinking of doing a limited time on the bike for a week and then slowing increase it every week. Does that sound like a good plan?

I have to get this started. I would love to see my girls grow up and maybe have another baby sometime in the near future.

TJ and I have been talking about it. We don’t have any kids of our own together. It would be nice to have one someday. I got my tubes tied 10 years ago after the birth of my youngest daughter. I was 22 years old. I know I was still young. I have regreted it for 10 years. We have talked about getting my tubes untied sometime. I know that there could be a chance that I would never get pregnant again. But I’m willing to take the chance.

I have been doing some research on it. My tubes are just tied. Not burnt or cut. So maybe. Wish us luck.

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I have had some strange dreams in my lifetime. I had one last night. I had this dream that I was in my bedroom with my husband TJ. This was this blond woman with us. I’m not sure if she was a friend or a “girlfriend”. TJ started fucking her doggystyle and I can remember being very pissed off about it. I saw the look on his face and he was loving it. He acted like I wasn’t even there. I got up and left the room with one of my daughters. I was trying to explain why I was mad to my daughter. I was getting my daughters some socks since I had to take them home. I walked past our closed bedroom door. I didn’t want to go in there since I knew what was going on. I was so mad and hurt at the same time. When I finally woke up my heart was pounding so fast. I was mad. I knew it was a dream but I was still mad. After TJ woke up I told him about my dream and he told me that he would never do that. I know he wouldn’t do that. Now the question is why would I dream that? What does it mean?

I had another dream a couple of months ago. This one is a bit different. I had this dream that me and TJ had a little baby girl. We named her Brooklyn. She was so little and cute. We were shopping. Going around Wal-Mart getting clothes and stuff. It was a nice dream. When I woke up I told TJ my dream. He thought it was nice. We went to the store to do some shopping and saw this cute little bathing suit for a girl. TJ picked it up and told me that Brooklyn would look so cute in this bathing suit. She would be just like me and like the color purple.

Then there was this other dream that I was at Wal-Mart and we had a baby boy. He was still little sitting in his car seat. I was looking for the bottles and couldn’t find them. I started screaming “Where are the bottles?” I was going around this baby aisle that had everything but bottles. I couldn’t find the bottles. TJ was shopping for other stuff and I asked him to help me find the bottles. Then I woke up.

I would love to have another baby. My youngest daughter is 10. I got my tubes tied after I had her. 

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